Looking in the mirror was torture for months. I didn't know who I was or who I wanted to be. I was a lost soul who would smile to keep the sharks from smelling blood. Faking a happy life because it was better than being asked what was wrong. When everything hurts, staying quiet is better than screaming for help. The poison of everyday consumed me inch by inch, day in and day out. I forgot what it meant to be alive because nothing really mattered to me except making it to the next day. I was a corpse waiting to breathe again.
You came into my life. You had a lost look in your eyes, I was so familiar with this look because I had seen it a million times before. I tried to fix that mirror you looked into to help you see the beauty beneath the pain. Although the sharp edges to that mirror would stab me I kept trying to fix it. Looking at my hands and only seeing blood for days was killing me in the process. Your pain was slowly becoming my own. But I stayed and watched you turn cold, I would share my warmth even if it wasnt enough. I knew that our wounds would become scars, I was just waiting around for them to heal. I sat there and cried because your coldness would kill me and leave me stranded alone. One day you loved me the next you were a stranger. But I knew it wasn't my fault you were this way. Your past still lingered in your mind and made you who you were for weeks.
Yesterday, today, and even tomorrow I have chosen to stay by you no matter how much you push me away. You have slowly become a part of me. A part of the reason why my heart beats every second. I may not be your perfect cup of tea but I'll be your shoulder to cry on, your best friend, your guide to move forward. I will continue to fight for your happiness because you have taught me to be alive again. Looking in the mirror is not a problem as long as youre by my side. You helped me heal, you helped me forget the past that haunted me for months. You are the reason why I am slowly starting to believe in love again.
Thank you. You know who you are. You are the reason why I wake up smiling everyday. Why people have noticed the glow in my face. I had no idea that someone can change your life in a matter of months. How someone who was also broken can become a part of you and help you through every struggle. You may have been a reason why I cried some nights but only because I loved you so much and it tore me to see you hurt. I wanted to take your pain away so badly it ended up hurting me because I wasnt able to be a hero for you. You saved me... You continue to save me every single day. Your voice is the first thing I want to hear in the morning and your heartbeat the last thing at night. I want to feel your warmth when the world collapses on me. I want to breathe in your smell when I have gone completely numb. I want this forever and past that. "I will love you when you are a still day. I will love you when you are a hurricane."
