Last night I witnessed a true heart break. I watched someone I love dearly cry herself to sleep. I listened to her veracious words slap him across the face. I saw the truth light up in her eyes, and that truth is what will push her to move on. I layed next to her and I could feel her pain run through my own veins. I could hear her heart beating too quick it might shoot out of her own chest. And I would be there to hold on to it and help her fix it. I was there to rub her back as she looked to the ground and realized that she didnt want to deal with this pain anymore. She wanted to move forward with her life and forget him forever.
Two years ago I watched a man who had everything, a family, a wife, kids in school, a job, a house, cars, money, health, and an identity also get his heart broken. I watched him cry. I watched him yell in frustration. I watched him turn into a stranger. I was there when he slowly dissappeared from my life. I heard him say things I hoped to never hear from anyone. I looked him in the eyes and watched his turn a different color. They became darker, they became unfamiliar and hopeless. All because one woman, ended everything and changed our lives forever.
I've seen two hearbreaks that have killed me slowly but surely. Both people I look up to and wonder how they're still able to smile throughout the day. One became so unfamiliar and the other became the strongest woman I'll ever know. They have loved and they have lost. They have had their hearts broken so bad that mine is beginning to shatter just by watching. I lost my love through death but I wasn't deceived like they were.
Love is a funny thing. It's strange, hurtful, hopeful, deceiving, and unexplainable at times. I have been in love and I still am in love with someone whom I'll never see again, for as long as I'm alive. I have seen her love a man who was unfaithful and did not deserve her since the beginning. I have seen a man fall in love with a woman who hid so much and destroyed him with just a couple words. I have seen love bring people together and I have seen it demolish. It's so sweet yet so rotten at times. It'll either rip you apart, or make you into someone you'd never even believe. I don't think love is a bad thing it just hurts like hell. Love is a four letter word that I won't ever understand. These hearbreaks that I have witnessed and felt make me realize that God saved us from the wrong ones. But like a great man once said " I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear."
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